The Silence of Alexiel
No, I don't have a cool video to put up. And no, the Tri-Force martial arts group is not dead. We are far from it, as far as I can tell. The only thing that holds us back is the silence that keeps us from being together to train as much as we would like. That's a bit of what I'd like to talk about...with the focus being on the quietest member of the group: me.
Being the most reserved member of the group, I honestly am a silent person if I have nothing to contribute to a conversation. Unfortunately, this has seeped into my role as Alexiel within this group. If you haven't been reading my blog, then in terms of skill and performance as a member of this group, you would strictly see me at face-value; I am the least trained and least active member of the group. Period. However, Shaian & Kou will be the first to say that it's not my fault I live on a campus 80 some miles away from our homebase with the craziest schedule to top it off. At the same time, I then have nothing to contribute to the group, in terms of conversational improvement, breakthroughs, cool moves, etc. And thus, in our group discussion, I become more silent than I feel I should be. In other words, they talk about how close they are to doing backhand springs and backflips, and I just congratulate them on their growth...because I do care, you know?
Why am I writing all of this? Because I'm also the most emotional, empathetic member of the Tri-Force. Not to mention I haven't had anything else to show for myself in the past 5-6 months. In other words, if you watch our vids, I'm just saying I'm still alive, just unable to train well due to college & weather conditions. I probably could have just wrote that, but then why would I want to be more silent than I already am?
I'll be back with the group in early May. Hopefully stronger, nimble, a bit faster, and maybe with a surprise or two to capture on tape. What? You thought I gave up on training while at school? Che...I'm fscking pissed about not being on level with them. Like hell I'm going to let Shaian & Kou steal all the glory! Best friends don't let best friends do such things. I might not be able to do a backhand spring, but that's not everything; just a step of something. Remembering that is the only thing that keeps me trying to make time to train rather than giving up all together.
Ja, boku wa ima shitsureshimasu...Bokura nihongo o yarinakerebanaranai ga arimasu yo...
(Now if you'll excuse me...I have some Japanese I need to do...)
Dewa jikai (Until next),
+ Alexiel +